I feel the need to write down all the things i'm thankful for... the past few days have been rough on my heart for multiple reasons. A few being, my big mouth gets me into trouble, I have ignored Jesus (Seriously.. how did I manage to ignore my first and foremost person?), and some times relationships don't work out but it's for the better!
BUT...
Lately my family has mended and been getting together so well! I am so thankful for this... tis been a big petition to God. And see, He worked in my heart to where the bitterness receded and I was able to be sweet and generous instead of waiting for them... and it feels so good!
Am I obviously thankful for my friends? My job, school, and family have been first before you guys (at least it's not drugs, shopping, or sports right?) and I miss you! So much! I am thankful for my friends from high school, Taylor, Blaze, Lauren, Erine-Fay, Ashton, Megan and some friends I didn't know as well but still you are dear to me!
Shout out to my new girls, Tracy Jo, Kelly, Taylor R. (who has actually been my cousin for my whole life but we're just now friends), Lauren S, Ensley, Amanda, Rhiannon, Maryam (My awesome roomie!), and Stacers!
There have been a couple of friends who have stuck around since middle school like Sarah Jo and Arianah and we have had some crazy, and boy do I mean crazy times. Heck we went to six flags dressed up as super heros, ie The Bibleteers. haha oh man. I was bird girl, Jo was BUNNY girl hahaha and Arianah was Fish girl. we had masks and a pillow case cape and everything! What a blast! We have been on beach trips and gotton in trouble together, snuck out of our houses together.. scratch that just my house, and made messes together! ( messes of our lives, rooms, ext.)
I moved around a lot and have never really had core friends so each and every one of you mean the world to me!! My prayers revolved around you being in my life for years so every one of you, whether you have been in my life for one season or many you are answered prayers and have inspired, helped improved me, been my confidants, my shoulders, my dance partiers, but most importantly, lovers (in the friendly sense) and will forever be my soul sisters! (Hey soul sister, aint that mister mister on the radio, stereo.. you know you're singing!)
Just for your information, because I tried it, Grape powerade and peanut butter does not go together. YOU should be thankful for the heads up.
Those two are the most important on my list of thankfulness right now, also i'm tired of blogging. I just cycled for 45 min and it was hard core and awesome! Im thankful for working legs! So gotta get ready for work!!
If any of you have any crazy memories of us youre more than welcome to comment!
lastly but not leastly, loves yas!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Wish List
Ill add on.. probably not take off.. and if you want to join me on one of these (and I know you) then dont hesitate to plan and surprise me. Seriously, I love surprises.
These include everything I've ever wanted to do and am glad I did (maybe not so glad for all!) or still want to do! Some of these I know I wont ever cross off... but that is part of creating a wish list.
And this is just a wish list. My life is in no way based on doing these things, for I have more important things to spend my time. (Jesus is my commander in Chief.) However, during leisure hour why not.. leise?
1.Go Skydiving. Skydive the Farm, Summer 2010
2. Climb a billboard.
3. Wear Red Lipstick like a pro.
4. Get married to a man I love love love love love.
5. Bungee Jump off a bridge or waterfall.
6. Climb a water tower.
7. Learn To Juggle.
8.Wash my hair with Beer.
9. Have children.
10. Adopt children.
11. Host or attend a Dundees Party. (If you don't know what that is watch The Office, season 3.)
12. Host or attend a similar event to Office Olympics. (Ditto.)
13. Skate backwards.
14. Get kicked out of class. (Not the reason I wanted, but still.) - Feb 14, 2011. UWG
15. Switch to all natural beauty products. (Its definitely possible.)
16. Get old enough to not have to shave my legs anymore. (or use laser technology..)
17. Sell a piece of art to someone who genuinely likes it.
18. Die my hair. (Highlights or all out blonde or red or whatever...)
19. Use ear candles. (Its fun to see gross stuff inside our ears...) May, 2011. (If you try it, don't do it in a closed space. STINKY!)
20. Fly an Airplane. Orlando, Fl. Summer 2005.
21. Work at a youth camp as a counselor. PineCove 2011, 2012
22. Publish something. (Book, song, poem, article, essay..)
23. Build a canoe or kayak with Daddy.
24. Sew a dress and enjoy it.
25. Ride an elephant. (preferably in Africa)
26. Sleep on a warm, secluded beach. (preferably not alone)
27. Get my first kiss. 2005. Backseat of Aunt Donna's Car (next to my cousin Taylor Roberts with Josh Dewberry...shoulda coulda woulda waited...)
28. Learn to play the guitar. Christmas 2005<
29. Be BFF with my sister, Sami.
29. Learn to Salsa Dance. (High Museum w/ Tracy Jo. January 2013.)
30. Show off salsa dancing skills in a latino club.
31. Play guitar and sing a song I like in front of my family and friends all together.
32. Make my Daddy so proud he cries.
33. Road trip with a friend to the beach. (Summer 2010, Spring Break 09, Spring Break 11)
34.See Needtobreathe in concert. Nov. 2012. IT WAS SOOOO GREAT
35. Go to an Opera.
36.Be in a play and know all my lines. (Couldn't really stop laughing...WestSidePlayers Summer 2011)
37. Use only my hands, feet, and hair to paint on a canvas as big as the average american living room floor. (maybe watercolor if my hair is involved..)
38. Catch an oyster and find a pearl.
39. Learn to give a good massage. Not sure when that happened.. but every one is glad it did!
40. Kiss like a movie-star in public with my husband while keeping a straight face. (why yes.. we will get a room!)
44. Write a song using only verses from the Bible.
45. Complete a tri-atholon.
46. See a real life kissing booth. (Those only happen in movies as far as I know.)
47. Fly. (Maybe with the force behind me as a cannon?)
48.Have people laugh hysterically at something I say or do. (Purposefully.) This happens all the time... now. #comedian
49. Visit San Francisco in the Winter.
50. Enjoy Bar-B-Que on a sandbar in the ocean.
51. Watch my husband carve our names in a tree. (I'll probably want to chop it down and take it home, too.)
52. Conquer my fear of being around large bodies of water at night.
53. Own a rocking chair. (I mean OWN it.. not just buy it.)
54. Sleep in the brush in Africa, with the lions and baboons.
55.Make a scrumptious-so-good-you-die dinner.- Feb 8, 2012. Stuffed spinach and mushroom chicken breast topped with a white wine sauce and asparagus on the side.
56. Build a castle out of grapes and toothpicks. 2000(ish). With my Mom and Sister.
60. Learn to whistle.
61. Go on a cruise. (See #52)
62. Almost get arrested. March 19, 2011. Climbed Taco Mac with Hope Howard.
63. Make popcorn from scratch. (That I doubt I'll ever do...)
64. Tat it up.
65. Meet a nose.(Someone who creates the scents and formulas for perfumes..I want to know how they got that job.)
66. Take some pretty pictures in Texas' Blue Bonnet fields.
67. Visit NYC and while there get a hot dog from a street vendor, and see something hilarious or b-e-a-utiful on broadway.
68. Successfully pull off a good, old fashioned prank. April 1, 2011. Froze some hats and toothbrushes. No harm done... the boys of apartment 212 were still really mad.
69. Go on a hot air balloon ride!
70. Skydive with my grandma. (She did it before me... and there isn't exactly an age limit.)
71.
72. Be a Midwife.
73. See a sunset in Abilene, Tx.
74. Dance at Billy Bobs and have a blast getting groovy like country people. (Honkey Tonk Badonkydonk... but not really)
75. Help birth an animal, like a cow or horse or elephant. (I guess they dont really need help. Still think it would be cool. A human would satisfy this wish, as well.)
76. Climb Kennesaw Mountain at night. (Nov. 30th with Bobby Hinsdale. - illegal and cold but gorgeous views!)
77. See Guster in concert. (W/ B.H.)
78. Get my wisdom teeth out. . (Dec 13th. I could hear the dentist cracking my teeth. Isnt that fabulous and wonderful and exciting? #gag)
79.Play on a ropes course at night. (Dec. 7th. w/ B.H.)
**I just re-read some of these posts and might I add that I know some of them are quite ridiculous, which makes them even more worth-while thank you!
These include everything I've ever wanted to do and am glad I did (maybe not so glad for all!) or still want to do! Some of these I know I wont ever cross off... but that is part of creating a wish list.
And this is just a wish list. My life is in no way based on doing these things, for I have more important things to spend my time. (Jesus is my commander in Chief.) However, during leisure hour why not.. leise?
2. Climb a billboard.
3. Wear Red Lipstick like a pro.
4. Get married to a man I love love love love love.
5. Bungee Jump off a bridge or waterfall.
6. Climb a water tower.
7. Learn To Juggle.
8.Wash my hair with Beer.
9. Have children.
10. Adopt children.
11. Host or attend a Dundees Party. (If you don't know what that is watch The Office, season 3.)
12. Host or attend a similar event to Office Olympics. (Ditto.)
13. Skate backwards.
15. Switch to all natural beauty products. (Its definitely possible.)
16. Get old enough to not have to shave my legs anymore. (or use laser technology..)
17. Sell a piece of art to someone who genuinely likes it.
18. Die my hair. (Highlights or all out blonde or red or whatever...)
22. Publish something. (Book, song, poem, article, essay..)
23. Build a canoe or kayak with Daddy.
24. Sew a dress and enjoy it.
25. Ride an elephant. (preferably in Africa)
26. Sleep on a warm, secluded beach. (preferably not alone)
29.
29.
30. Show off salsa dancing skills in a latino club.
31. Play guitar and sing a song I like in front of my family and friends all together.
32. Make my Daddy so proud he cries.
34.
35. Go to an Opera.
36.
37. Use only my hands, feet, and hair to paint on a canvas as big as the average american living room floor. (maybe watercolor if my hair is involved..)
38. Catch an oyster and find a pearl.
40. Kiss like a movie-star in public with my husband while keeping a straight face. (why yes.. we will get a room!)
44. Write a song using only verses from the Bible.
45. Complete a tri-atholon.
46. See a real life kissing booth. (Those only happen in movies as far as I know.)
47. Fly. (Maybe with the force behind me as a cannon?)
48.
49. Visit San Francisco in the Winter.
50. Enjoy Bar-B-Que on a sandbar in the ocean.
51. Watch my husband carve our names in a tree. (I'll probably want to chop it down and take it home, too.)
52. Conquer my fear of being around large bodies of water at night.
53. Own a rocking chair. (I mean OWN it.. not just buy it.)
54. Sleep in the brush in Africa, with the lions and baboons.
55.
60. Learn to whistle.
61. Go on a cruise. (See #52)
63. Make popcorn from scratch. (That I doubt I'll ever do...)
64. Tat it up.
65. Meet a nose.(Someone who creates the scents and formulas for perfumes..I want to know how they got that job.)
66. Take some pretty pictures in Texas' Blue Bonnet fields.
67. Visit NYC and while there get a hot dog from a street vendor, and see something hilarious or b-e-a-utiful on broadway.
69. Go on a hot air balloon ride!
70. Skydive with my grandma. (She did it before me... and there isn't exactly an age limit.)
71.
72. Be a Midwife.
73. See a sunset in Abilene, Tx.
74. Dance at Billy Bobs and have a blast getting groovy like country people. (Honkey Tonk Badonkydonk... but not really)
75. Help birth an animal, like a cow or horse or elephant. (I guess they dont really need help. Still think it would be cool. A human would satisfy this wish, as well.)
76.
77.
78.
79.
**I just re-read some of these posts and might I add that I know some of them are quite ridiculous, which makes them even more worth-while thank you!
It is amazing how writing down feelings, hopes and thoughts releases negative and positive energy. I just finished a post and deleted it because I realized how much it did not make sense, releasing negative feelings concerning myself. Of course it is not as if Jesus played no part in me being closer to peace.
Anyway, I've heard it said that we do not have souls, we ARE souls and we have a body.
Have some fun with this thought! How foreign it is to us! I was driving in my car thinking, this is my body, yet I am alien to it. I'm going to try to help you understand just exactly how it makes me feel... explaining feelings is especially difficult though. Thats why we have words for them, and still everyone is never really sure how you feel when you try to explain deeper.
It feels peaceful, as if you have no attachment to the rest of the earthly world and no matter what happens your security in Christ is more than enough. I think this is where people who die for Christ have found themselves. They are being tortured by every means possible, emotionally, physically, but their peace is overwhelmingly pure. Considering myself as an alien to this world is not a lonely feeling at all, because I realize this is my temporary home and the Lord also places us here before we can enter His kingdom so we have the chance to chose Him. Blessings, hardship, heartbreak, happiness, death, life, everything giving a glimpse of who God is or is not.
Really our bodies are like our cars.. we feed them, take them in for check ups, try to fix them when they are sick and sometimes they just can't be fixed, all the while our souls in the drivers seat, taking this or that turn, stopping here and going there. We care how it looks, want it to be pretty and have a good body. But what really matters is the interior, keep it free of clutter so Jesus can drive and we can ride passenger, room enough in there for the Holy Spirit and God too. Since they are 3 in 1 you KNOW they will take up some room!
haha.. oh me.
Anyway, I've heard it said that we do not have souls, we ARE souls and we have a body.
Have some fun with this thought! How foreign it is to us! I was driving in my car thinking, this is my body, yet I am alien to it. I'm going to try to help you understand just exactly how it makes me feel... explaining feelings is especially difficult though. Thats why we have words for them, and still everyone is never really sure how you feel when you try to explain deeper.
It feels peaceful, as if you have no attachment to the rest of the earthly world and no matter what happens your security in Christ is more than enough. I think this is where people who die for Christ have found themselves. They are being tortured by every means possible, emotionally, physically, but their peace is overwhelmingly pure. Considering myself as an alien to this world is not a lonely feeling at all, because I realize this is my temporary home and the Lord also places us here before we can enter His kingdom so we have the chance to chose Him. Blessings, hardship, heartbreak, happiness, death, life, everything giving a glimpse of who God is or is not.
Really our bodies are like our cars.. we feed them, take them in for check ups, try to fix them when they are sick and sometimes they just can't be fixed, all the while our souls in the drivers seat, taking this or that turn, stopping here and going there. We care how it looks, want it to be pretty and have a good body. But what really matters is the interior, keep it free of clutter so Jesus can drive and we can ride passenger, room enough in there for the Holy Spirit and God too. Since they are 3 in 1 you KNOW they will take up some room!
haha.. oh me.
Monday, February 14, 2011
"Valentimes" Day
My Daddy has the ability to get on my very last nerves, push my temper to the limit, and make me cry. (Either by laughing or by being in trouble..)
But Daddy has always been loving, and every year for valentines day he has been the one giving me roses or chocolates and always big kisses. Literally this year, being my first year ever not waking up at home on valentines day, he gave me a 7 oz Hershey's Kiss.
I'm so glad to have my Dad, to me, this holiday is more about father daughter ties than anything else.
And I'm more than happy to get my phone call from Daddy and visit my grandma, life is more than dates and kisses, so much more! Enjoy it!
But Daddy has always been loving, and every year for valentines day he has been the one giving me roses or chocolates and always big kisses. Literally this year, being my first year ever not waking up at home on valentines day, he gave me a 7 oz Hershey's Kiss.
I'm so glad to have my Dad, to me, this holiday is more about father daughter ties than anything else.
And I'm more than happy to get my phone call from Daddy and visit my grandma, life is more than dates and kisses, so much more! Enjoy it!
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thank the Lord I Saw the Light!
So today is my birthday.. and I have a quarrel with this "birthday celebration"- i'm sure to no ones surprise.
*Being I did absolutely nothing worth celebrating to become born.
My mom and dad really wanted me... at least mom did. Daddy just sort of happened to stick around haha. And mom went painstakingly through 9 months of avoiding anything remotely potentially harmful to me. She quit smoking, did not eat chocolate, drink coffee or anything having any amount of caffeine, i'm not sure if she took medicine, but I know she avoided most of it. Even when she had heartburn, she sucked it up with saltines.
Not to mention 24 hours of labour! Only to need a cesarian section! And one of my top 5 favorite photos of her ever is her right after she gave birth to me... She has always been so gorgeous! Even after sleep deprivation and intense pain.
So why do we celebrate me?
I know I know, you're thinking we celebrate birthdays because we are happy to know them and we love and care and laugh with and enjoy these persons company.
I don't guess I mind being celebrated as long as the due respect and honor goes to our mothers.
You know if pregnancy is that hard, and labour that painful (be a curse as it may), you better live your life like it was WORTH IT. That is worth celebrating!
BTW... I guess it shouldn't or can't go unsaid that it's all about Jesus. Everything. Even dumb little things glorify Him or don't... He loves you enough to give you breath, but there is only life and life to the full in Him.
Thanks for reading my thoughts! Comment with your own skepticism and opinions!
*Being I did absolutely nothing worth celebrating to become born.
My mom and dad really wanted me... at least mom did. Daddy just sort of happened to stick around haha. And mom went painstakingly through 9 months of avoiding anything remotely potentially harmful to me. She quit smoking, did not eat chocolate, drink coffee or anything having any amount of caffeine, i'm not sure if she took medicine, but I know she avoided most of it. Even when she had heartburn, she sucked it up with saltines.
Not to mention 24 hours of labour! Only to need a cesarian section! And one of my top 5 favorite photos of her ever is her right after she gave birth to me... She has always been so gorgeous! Even after sleep deprivation and intense pain.
So why do we celebrate me?
I know I know, you're thinking we celebrate birthdays because we are happy to know them and we love and care and laugh with and enjoy these persons company.
I don't guess I mind being celebrated as long as the due respect and honor goes to our mothers.
You know if pregnancy is that hard, and labour that painful (be a curse as it may), you better live your life like it was WORTH IT. That is worth celebrating!
BTW... I guess it shouldn't or can't go unsaid that it's all about Jesus. Everything. Even dumb little things glorify Him or don't... He loves you enough to give you breath, but there is only life and life to the full in Him.
Thanks for reading my thoughts! Comment with your own skepticism and opinions!
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