Legalism and Boundaries

Im in big trouble when it comes to being right.

See I really could care less if I am for my bragging sake.. I just want to be right in the end, and that means correction of course, so Ill know how to not live wrongly. I cant stand the idea of serving a God as big as He is and do it the wrong way!!

Thats just wrong!

So we sought pure doctrine, broke off into separate denominations... now what? I grew up in the methodist and baptist churches, honestly making fun of the other denominations, the hard core ones. what the heck Case..!!! I guess lukewarm will hate fire. Okay so now I realize I need to expose myself to everything and figure out what is right by studying and allowing God to reveal Himself.

But can I make a god or idol of this? is it possible to desire right relationship which leads to right living too much?

It really REALLY bothers me that I might not understand who God really is. I know we learn all the time, but isn't this in particular better learned sooner than later? We will need it later! In fact we need it soon!

And okay... I told someone recently that I was over being legalistic. Don't get me wrong, Gods put me through bounds and leaps when it comes to change for the better, but the fear of being wrong in His name holds rules kinda tightly. How will I know where boundaries are without rules? ..Are there boundaries?

"Everything is permissible but not beneficial."
I cant tell you how many times i've said this... Lord help me if I speak lies!
What it means is I can do everything because i am saved through grace but I wont because it doesn't benefit the cause. the cause is loving God through loving people.
 (Grace= Gift undeserved, ie salvation.)
If God HATES sin, (which I know for a big fat fact He does) then everything wouldn't be permissible would it?

You know one of my biggest prayers is that God would send someone to lead me in the right direction. He knows I need it! Then again do I not think He cant lead me in the right direction?

Im too curious for my own good... If im being honest I truely desire comfort and an easy life but seeking after God aint gonna be it the way the world has it. (albeit I already understand He gives joy and peace and such)  Haha Christians are all crazy... thank the Lord for His hand moving our hearts and not ourselves! 


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